Confession time,
I'm a bit of a wimp, I even took a test yesterday telling me that I AM a wimp, (it made me laugh so hard I copy and pasted it) Why am I saying this? Well, I can sit at my computer for hours on end writing about the most horrifying things and not break a sweat, I've even gone as far as to say "If I got chased by something like that, I wouldn't be afraid."
Ooh, that was a lie. I dreamt last night that I was in a Harry Potter movie and both he and Ron were sitting by this muddy bank by a river (not a money bank, a river bank, just to clear up) and there was this narration voice saying, "And this was the first time Harry saw the skeletal hand pick grass," sounds stupid right? Until you see it. Yes, there was a skeleton hand picking grass and I KNEW the rest of it was going to burst out of the ground and I was literally screaming at Harry and Ron to run, but they didn't, they just sat there until the whole thing crawled out of the ground and it was like there was this prerecorded message that went with the skeleton as it grinned at Harry and Ron and me, and it went something like this, "I am a zombie, I don't understand pleading, or mercy. I am me and you are delicious." and of course it started to chase me.
I woke myself up from that dream terrified, I was literally flinching at every sound, you know that scary, "I just woke up from a nightmare" feeling? Yeah, all morning. I was so happy when the sun started to come up!
Thankfully I now know the interpretation behind this dream, apparently the stresses and things I'm keeping to myself are eating me alive! (I am a stress, I don't understand mercy or pleading, I am me, and YOU are delicious) it was amazing how accurate the interpretation my sister sent me via email was. My only problem is I don't know what to do about it, I think stepping back and evaluating everything would be a good idea, I've got my face in the fire and the only thing that happens when you get that close to flames is getting burned.
Ouch.
It's time to kick all of those nasty "you can't do it" "Why bother trying? You WILL fail" "You should have taken up knitting" feelings out of me, it's getting so bad, my mind is trying to send me a message to STOP DWELLING ON THEM!
That's all. :)
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Monday, January 21, 2013
Still stuck in January
Well, I'm glad last week is over. It was pretty tough. But good news, I started fiddling! Mary Had a Little Lamb never sounded so sweet, or squeaky. Also, (and amazingly) one of my school essays is going to turn into a published story! (Maybe) my Wizard Wanderings won me an +A and a nice look at a continuing story for Amazon kindles. That's my good news, the BAD news is that it's very possible that no one will buy it, but at least I haven't gone to as much work with Wizard Wanderings as I did with Twisted, again, it was an essay after all, but still it would kill me to not have anyone look at it. Major ouch.
That's the unpredictability of being a debut author in a world of fierce competition, especially a TEEN author. I'm scared, what if no one gives my book a second look? So far everyone has liked it and has been sucked in from the get go, but that's no guarantee. Fortunately it's easier to get published in the 21st century than it was before, but having a published book means nothing if no one is reading it.
I dub this worry and sadness, "Stuck in January Disease" I wasn't sorry worried or upset until January rolled it's ugly head. I will be glad to get rid of it, and the smog (both physical, I haven't seen my mountains in days, and emotional) it brought along with it.
That's the unpredictability of being a debut author in a world of fierce competition, especially a TEEN author. I'm scared, what if no one gives my book a second look? So far everyone has liked it and has been sucked in from the get go, but that's no guarantee. Fortunately it's easier to get published in the 21st century than it was before, but having a published book means nothing if no one is reading it.
I dub this worry and sadness, "Stuck in January Disease" I wasn't sorry worried or upset until January rolled it's ugly head. I will be glad to get rid of it, and the smog (both physical, I haven't seen my mountains in days, and emotional) it brought along with it.
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
Tangled
Still, nothing new, (sadly) isn't it the woes of January for this to happen? We get through the Holidays with a lot excitment and it all winds down on the 2nd day of January. Back to school back to work. Yuck.
I'm still in the midsts of rewriting the second book in Twisted, so far it has two names, Entwined and Entangled (I keep messing up the file name between the two) and the kelpie has revealed himself to be a kelpie, (dark sinister laugh as lightning flashes, MWAHAHAHA!) and that's about it.
I'm still in the midsts of rewriting the second book in Twisted, so far it has two names, Entwined and Entangled (I keep messing up the file name between the two) and the kelpie has revealed himself to be a kelpie, (dark sinister laugh as lightning flashes, MWAHAHAHA!) and that's about it.
Monday, January 14, 2013
Still, nothing new
Aside from a change in quarter, nothing new.
I was so grouchy on Saturday I spaced practicing my violin, hope that doesn't come back to haunt me. :) but to those who bother to care, yes I'm okay now. Thanks for asking.
I was so grouchy on Saturday I spaced practicing my violin, hope that doesn't come back to haunt me. :) but to those who bother to care, yes I'm okay now. Thanks for asking.
Friday, January 11, 2013
Nothing New, except the cure for writer's block
Amazingly, I have nothing to report, except I FINALLY got to drop the Allegro song. It was great when I sounded out myself, and even better when I finally got to move on 21 days later.
Oh and I got past some major writer's block. You know the type, this is stupid, nothing is working, why am I even bothering? No one will care, I should quit, I should have taken up knitting instead.
Unfortunately, writer's block is a big part of being an author, I used to go through HUGE bouts of it where I wanted to quit so badly it ached. I did, a couple times, but sadly, I can't quit, I get stubborn, and then I try again.
A good way to solve writer's block is to step back. Evaluate what the problem is away from your computer screen or notebook. Take a walk. Think. Don't think. Try to figure out what new and creative ways you can torture (uh, I mean help) your characters through the story. Use that creative brain of yours and BRAINSTORM, have a real thunderstorm going on inside your head.
OR
If this isn't working for you, figure out the cause, often times fixing writer's block requires you to go through the fairly painful process of figuring out what the root of the tree of writer's block is. It could be a wrong turn you made in the plot, if you feel uncomfortable, bored, or just fried while trying to write, it's possible that you've done this.
Or the root could be your characters. Yes, we love them, we need them, but they can also be a real pain in the neck! Sometimes when I hit major writer's block it's because I'm not sticking to my characters' personalities, and they REALLY don't like it when I do that. I can't force my characters to act ways that they aren't, thus resulting in writer's block.
The reason above is why I had it. There's this certain character I have, I love him to death, (Ha, ha! Funny, considering he's undead!) but he drives me sincerely crazy. He's a wraith, (yes, I write from a wraith's POV, quite interesting actually) and definitely among one of the most stubborn, block headed characters I've ever had. I can't force him to do ANYTHING and more than once he's been the cause of major headaches, screaming into pillows, and banging my head against a wall. I had to forgo at least a hundred well (and not so well) written pages from his POV. Major ouch. But the way I overcame writer's block was by stepping back and trying to think about it the way he would, kind of hard considering wraiths don't think the way we living and breathing beings do, but I managed to figure it out and now instead of going looking for the Aramabics, he gets abducted by them. It works so much better!
(Spoiler alert)
Yeah, that's about all I have. Hoped it helped. :)
Oh and I got past some major writer's block. You know the type, this is stupid, nothing is working, why am I even bothering? No one will care, I should quit, I should have taken up knitting instead.
Unfortunately, writer's block is a big part of being an author, I used to go through HUGE bouts of it where I wanted to quit so badly it ached. I did, a couple times, but sadly, I can't quit, I get stubborn, and then I try again.
A good way to solve writer's block is to step back. Evaluate what the problem is away from your computer screen or notebook. Take a walk. Think. Don't think. Try to figure out what new and creative ways you can torture (uh, I mean help) your characters through the story. Use that creative brain of yours and BRAINSTORM, have a real thunderstorm going on inside your head.
OR
If this isn't working for you, figure out the cause, often times fixing writer's block requires you to go through the fairly painful process of figuring out what the root of the tree of writer's block is. It could be a wrong turn you made in the plot, if you feel uncomfortable, bored, or just fried while trying to write, it's possible that you've done this.
Or the root could be your characters. Yes, we love them, we need them, but they can also be a real pain in the neck! Sometimes when I hit major writer's block it's because I'm not sticking to my characters' personalities, and they REALLY don't like it when I do that. I can't force my characters to act ways that they aren't, thus resulting in writer's block.
The reason above is why I had it. There's this certain character I have, I love him to death, (Ha, ha! Funny, considering he's undead!) but he drives me sincerely crazy. He's a wraith, (yes, I write from a wraith's POV, quite interesting actually) and definitely among one of the most stubborn, block headed characters I've ever had. I can't force him to do ANYTHING and more than once he's been the cause of major headaches, screaming into pillows, and banging my head against a wall. I had to forgo at least a hundred well (and not so well) written pages from his POV. Major ouch. But the way I overcame writer's block was by stepping back and trying to think about it the way he would, kind of hard considering wraiths don't think the way we living and breathing beings do, but I managed to figure it out and now instead of going looking for the Aramabics, he gets abducted by them. It works so much better!
(Spoiler alert)
Yeah, that's about all I have. Hoped it helped. :)
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
January Slums
I'm not sure what it is about January, it seems to be the longest month right before the shortest one. Boring. Though I'm happy today, I haven't had a violin lesson in 3 weeks due to the recital and the holidays. I'm glad that I'll be dropping Allegro and moving on, it is my goal to be in Suzuki Book 2 by May (also the same time I plan on getting my book published) and moving on to book 3 by December maybe? I guess we'll see how hard it is.
I think waking up at 5 for a year has been catching up with me, I snored partway through English, delayed writing an essay for about twenty minutes so I could keep snoring and I've been dizzy all morning. I hope the dizziness goes away, amazing how a spinning head can level you just as easily as an earthquake. I wonder, if I didn't grab anything, would I fall on my face? Huh, something to think about, but I like the current position of my nose so I don't think I'll try.
I think waking up at 5 for a year has been catching up with me, I snored partway through English, delayed writing an essay for about twenty minutes so I could keep snoring and I've been dizzy all morning. I hope the dizziness goes away, amazing how a spinning head can level you just as easily as an earthquake. I wonder, if I didn't grab anything, would I fall on my face? Huh, something to think about, but I like the current position of my nose so I don't think I'll try.
Monday, January 7, 2013
2013, Time To Try The New
Yay, it's a new year.
Boo, it's January.
Nice advantage here, I can now proclaim myself a survivor of the end of the world, three times now, (2000, 12, 12, 12, 12,21,12) I didn't even get a t-shirt.
Anyway, so I'm feeling quite proud of myself because I managed to sound out most of a song without any music whatsoever! Sheet music, I mean, I was listening to the song as I went along, and I want to make a movie of it. Be warned, it won't be THAT great, but at least I'm trying so brownie points on me. :)
I also got Twisted to the point that's it's ready to be edited, I just need to remember to speak to my parents about getting it edited, (yeah, I'm a lame teen author, I mean 17, come ON!?) and then BAM! I am so much closer to getting a book published.
I can sense a bit of pain coming my way, but I've been fighting for this for 2 years, so it's time. Stick around, I'll TRY to give helpful information about getting a book published and edited (oops! other way around!) edited and published as the process goes for me, but I can't predict this is going to over very smoothly. I mean, I've never done this before, but I've also never played a violin in a recital before either, and it went okay. I guess it's like stepping out of your comfort zone to try something you haven't ever before, like Yorkshire Pudding, I don't think I've ever had it before and it was pretty good. I just hope this isn't like watching other people try slimy watercress, it looked like troll boogers.
Boo, it's January.
Nice advantage here, I can now proclaim myself a survivor of the end of the world, three times now, (2000, 12, 12, 12, 12,21,12) I didn't even get a t-shirt.
Anyway, so I'm feeling quite proud of myself because I managed to sound out most of a song without any music whatsoever! Sheet music, I mean, I was listening to the song as I went along, and I want to make a movie of it. Be warned, it won't be THAT great, but at least I'm trying so brownie points on me. :)
I also got Twisted to the point that's it's ready to be edited, I just need to remember to speak to my parents about getting it edited, (yeah, I'm a lame teen author, I mean 17, come ON!?) and then BAM! I am so much closer to getting a book published.
I can sense a bit of pain coming my way, but I've been fighting for this for 2 years, so it's time. Stick around, I'll TRY to give helpful information about getting a book published and edited (oops! other way around!) edited and published as the process goes for me, but I can't predict this is going to over very smoothly. I mean, I've never done this before, but I've also never played a violin in a recital before either, and it went okay. I guess it's like stepping out of your comfort zone to try something you haven't ever before, like Yorkshire Pudding, I don't think I've ever had it before and it was pretty good. I just hope this isn't like watching other people try slimy watercress, it looked like troll boogers.
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